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WTF EMA's? No awards for Kings Of music Leon?
dear fans& MTV; YOU FAİL.
dear fans& MTV; YOU FAİL.
I'm feeling: 
bitchy
bitchy5 thoughts | what do you think?
When It Isn't Like It Should Be.
Pam's Journal.
31 October 2009 @ 12:45 am
1970-1993
River Phoenix.
16 years ago today,a star has passed away.
an actor
an activist
a vegeterian
a musician
a brother
a boy.
He was a boy who had so much to do and to say.He was so young.
rest in peace River,you're with us♥
"To live in hearts you leave behind,Is not to die."
I'm feeling: 
sad
sad28 October 2009 @ 08:25 pm
School is on holiday..
I am kind of sick since last week,I'm feelin so tired.
I'm so excited&sad at the same time.Reason why I'm excited is,we're gonna see "This Is It" with my friends on friday:)
Reason why I'm sad is,its River Phoenix's death anniversary this saturday:/ I don't know what to do.Theres a halloween party and because I'm a senior,I really wanna go there and have fun with my friends but I'l be thinking about River all night so I can't have fun..
pffh.Its so complicated.
I am kind of sick since last week,I'm feelin so tired.
I'm so excited&sad at the same time.Reason why I'm excited is,we're gonna see "This Is It" with my friends on friday:)
Reason why I'm sad is,its River Phoenix's death anniversary this saturday:/ I don't know what to do.Theres a halloween party and because I'm a senior,I really wanna go there and have fun with my friends but I'l be thinking about River all night so I can't have fun..
pffh.Its so complicated.
I'm feeling: 
calm
calmlistening to: Kings Of Leon-Sex On Fire
23 October 2009 @ 07:48 pm
I miss River...and I don't know what to do.I am so sad.Why did he have to die?When he had so much to say,so much to do? Its unfair.
And 31st of october is coming.His death anniversary..I don't want to deal with this.Can't he just come back?Please.
And 31st of october is coming.His death anniversary..I don't want to deal with this.Can't he just come back?Please.
I'm feeling: crappy
crappy19 October 2009 @ 08:52 pm
Just showing off my new userpic:) Isn't he cute?
I'm feeling: 
peaceful
peacefullistening to: Jessie Baylin-Was I On Your Mind
10 October 2009 @ 08:03 pm
I'm feeling: 
thoughtful
thoughtful27 September 2009 @ 11:48 pm
I miss you River Jude Phoenix,I am trying to forget you,but I fail everytime.I can't stay away from you,everything I do,somehow It always comes to you..I miss you so much,you have no idea.I hope you're happy and peaceful.
I love you.always.
I'm feeling: sad
sad24 September 2009 @ 08:08 pm
I feel so sad.I can't even describe it.I feel so lonely,upset,broken.
You would punch me in the face if you knew what happened yesterday.Because that thing was like my dream come true and I achieved it,but I'm still sad.So,I'm gonna tell ya what happened and why I feel so sad.Tell me why I am feeling like this when I'm supposed to be so happy.
Okay,here we go.
I have this favourite band ever called maNga.They're from Turkey,my counrty.I am in love with the lead singer of the band.Three moths ago,they were touring and they came here for a concert and I met with Ferman(lead singer) after the concert.I hugged&talked to him.It was the best night of my life.Yesterday,I was at their concert again,and I met him again,well I met the whole band,but what most affected me was Ferman.We talked and I hugged him three times,he gave me his water bottle during the concert,signed my arm,he smiled at me all the time.It was like a dream for me.I still can not believe it happened.Everything is so good and happy right?I mean I am so lucky to have met him twice..But I am not happy.I feel so lonely and sad.I think thats because I love him so much.I love him so much that I want to be with him,or his friend..But thats quite not possible and Its breaking my heart.Not to mention he has a girlfriend,who is stupid woman,who cheated on him.Douchebag!Well he's kinda stupid too,for forgiving her..ugh.See,I am sad because of these things.
I still can't figure out why I am this sad? Why?Do you have any idea?If you do,please tell me:(
You would punch me in the face if you knew what happened yesterday.Because that thing was like my dream come true and I achieved it,but I'm still sad.So,I'm gonna tell ya what happened and why I feel so sad.Tell me why I am feeling like this when I'm supposed to be so happy.
Okay,here we go.
I have this favourite band ever called maNga.They're from Turkey,my counrty.I am in love with the lead singer of the band.Three moths ago,they were touring and they came here for a concert and I met with Ferman(lead singer) after the concert.I hugged&talked to him.It was the best night of my life.Yesterday,I was at their concert again,and I met him again,well I met the whole band,but what most affected me was Ferman.We talked and I hugged him three times,he gave me his water bottle during the concert,signed my arm,he smiled at me all the time.It was like a dream for me.I still can not believe it happened.Everything is so good and happy right?I mean I am so lucky to have met him twice..But I am not happy.I feel so lonely and sad.I think thats because I love him so much.I love him so much that I want to be with him,or his friend..But thats quite not possible and Its breaking my heart.Not to mention he has a girlfriend,who is stupid woman,who cheated on him.Douchebag!Well he's kinda stupid too,for forgiving her..ugh.See,I am sad because of these things.
I still can't figure out why I am this sad? Why?Do you have any idea?If you do,please tell me:(
20 September 2009 @ 04:15 pm
20 September 2009 @ 03:46 am
"Six billion people in the world. 6 billion souls.And sometimes all you need is one."
I'm feeling: 
sleepy
sleepy20 September 2009 @ 12:32 am
18 September 2009 @ 10:13 pm
16 September 2009 @ 02:39 am
ok so I saw this and I don't know what to say...just..damn Jared!
epic.
epic.
I'm feeling: sleepy
sleepy10 September 2009 @ 04:03 am
horny10 September 2009 @ 01:49 am
I am thinking of doing a Christina Aguilera picspam be cause she is my favourite person ever! I am too lazy to do it,I'll do it tomorrow.
I'm feeling: 
tired
tired07 September 2009 @ 11:52 pm
Happy Birthday Evan Rachel Wood.
She's my favourite actress,I love her ♥
I'm feeling: 
annoyed
annoyedlistening to: Nirvana-Dumb
07 September 2009 @ 05:45 pm
When you try your best but you don’t succeed,
When you get what you want, but not what you need.
When you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep,
..Stuck in reverse.
And the tears come streaming down your face,
When you lose something you can’t replace,
When you love someone but it goes to waste…
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home. And ignite your bones.
And I will try to fix you.
I'm feeling: 
bored
bored06 September 2009 @ 04:10 am
06 September 2009 @ 03:44 am
hey guys.Its been a while since I haven't updated.Nothing interested is going on,just random things..same ritual everyday..summer is about to be over and 1 month left to school opening.This is my senior year,I am gonna go to university next year,and I am not excited at all.I don't know why..
I have been seeing Taylor Lautner in my dreams lately,as Jacob of course,and I am Bella..I saw him two times since last week and in both of them,I want him to kiss me but he doesn't.I wake up feeling sad..Its really weird.Be cause I don't like Taylor that much,well I am kinda team jacob but Taylor isn't attractive to me so I don't know why I wanna kiss him so bad.Weird..I wish he would kiss me I am always asking him but he doesn't..pffh.Weird dreams..
Other than school excitement and jacob dreams,nothing new is going on.. Oh and I still miss River Phoenix.I think thats one feeling I am never gonna get rid of..I am not even trying to ged rid of it,I like thinking about him.He is everyting to me.I miss you River <3
I have been seeing Taylor Lautner in my dreams lately,as Jacob of course,and I am Bella..I saw him two times since last week and in both of them,I want him to kiss me but he doesn't.I wake up feeling sad..Its really weird.Be cause I don't like Taylor that much,well I am kinda team jacob but Taylor isn't attractive to me so I don't know why I wanna kiss him so bad.Weird..I wish he would kiss me I am always asking him but he doesn't..pffh.Weird dreams..
Other than school excitement and jacob dreams,nothing new is going on.. Oh and I still miss River Phoenix.I think thats one feeling I am never gonna get rid of..I am not even trying to ged rid of it,I like thinking about him.He is everyting to me.I miss you River <3
02 September 2009 @ 05:33 pm
